Getting Back To My Yes Place

I admit it I have a lot of image noise.  I am too worried about what others think, be it friends or family, the latter being the case!  

When we see our family, they have travelled thousands of miles for the privelege and stay with us, in our home, for a 2 to 3 week period.  I very much appreciate that they have come so far and spent so much to get here and love every minute of them being here with us as I do miss them all year through!  

For weeks before their intended arrival though I completely torture myself getting the house ready, to my clean standards whilst juggling two whirlwinds that are my children!

I shop for their favorite foods, make sure there is fine wine at hand, plenty of 'Aussie' cliches they expect from bbq's to planning beach days.  To which they are appreciative and mostly enjoy, although sometimes its so hard to tell.  They seem to always arrive from a place of no and I spend the whole time they are here trying to make them happy, to smile, be themselves and chill the hell out!

I have now come to the conclusion that you can't make people come from the same place you are coming from, it's just ridiculous to think that you can.  Frankly, once they have boarded that plane back to the UK I am suddenly left coming from a place of no!

It takes me a while to get back to the real me.  I am left feeling I am on the wrong path and start rethinking my decisions.  This last time I was left feeling what will my in laws think about my return to work, will I be abandoning my babies?  How can I be so selfish?  I considered a rethink from my real estate career to something more fitting like looking for a job in child care.  

It wasn't until I picked up my book, Bethenny Frankels, A Place of Yes, that I was reminded why I actually started my online course, I want something for me, I want to achieve something, I want to return to the workforce and I want to bring home a salary.  It took me a while to get back into my, I can do anything frame of mind, whilst still looking after, cooking for, reading to, bathing and loving my children.  I can do it all, nobody has to suffer, no children will be abandoned!

I am back on the journey to 'My place of Yes'!